What is happening with the world these days? What am I doing with my life? Some questions that have been keeping me up at night lately.
I’m angsty these days. Undoubtedly, some of it was brought on by Sloane starting kindergarten. Yes, I’m still processing it and for some reason this is one of those things that make me wonder if all this is what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. (...but the luxury of being able to wonder! And also the annoyance! Enneagram 7, remember?) By ‘all this’ I mean being a parent of a kindergartner, who will then go on through 12th grade, and then college, and then she’s out on her own...all while I am working 8 to 10 hour days, trying to keep the house together, trying to have meaningful relationships and community, trying to keep on top of what’s happening at the school, trying to pursue my own creative endeavors, trying to raise my other child, wondering if I’m doing enough, not getting enough sleep at night, paying off the mountain that is my student loan...do you see? That kind of angst.
I finally figured it out the other day. It's not just the change that’s throwing me for a loop (I usually love change). It’s the prospect of being ‘trapped’....it’s complicated, like all of our insides are, but this has always been a thing with me that will rear up once in a while. And hey, now that I’ve identified it, I’m working through it.
I think everything will be fine. I know it will. THE SECRET TO SUCCESS IS...defining your own success. I think it’s true because that’s when I feel the most content and at peace - when I define my own success.
Here is me defining my own success for this fall: a very short list of things that I love and want to remember to do during this season.
1. Go apple picking. Check! These photos are from a trip to the orchard this past weekend. We are hoping to do it again next weekend.
2. Eat a lot of apples.
3. Spend as much time outside as possible.
4. Make fires in the fire pit, frequently.
5. Go to Narnia!
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