happy halloween?

once in a while, i supsect someone else must be living my life, because surely, it wasn't me that just lived through the entire month of october and now facing november? how was it halloween already and now we're talking about thanksgiving? what's going on?

i didn't feel like dressing up at all, so i went out and got a huge bowl and appropriate-sized candy. i told myself that i'd pass off my participation this year by staying at home and passing out candy to the miniature superheros and scaries of the neighborhood. but we got home too late that day and missed all the kids, so now there is an big orange bowl of halloween candy sitting there without proper debut.

then i saw pictures of all the people dressed up and found it kind of annoying. i'm apparently just not in the right mindset this year.

to be fair to myself, i properly did a fall activity. i dragged boyfriend and company up a mountain to pick apples. 35 dollars worth of apples, to be clear. then i thought of different things i could make and bake with the apples. i realized that this may mark the cross over from need-to-dress-up-and-party attitude to the domesticated betty who makes apple crisp from scratch at home. and i kind of liked it. (what's going on?) let's see how this plays out for the other upcoming holidays.

the real key is to remain LOW KEY

for your personal stress-relief, i want to share an awesome website:

http://www.virtual-bubblewrap.com/popnow.shtml

the virtual bubble wrap!
i love it, but it just makes me want more of the real thing.

inspirational eye candy

I imagine that this is the kind of furniture that could actually make one feel like an entirely different person just by laying in it. i love looking at this.


nicholas kirkwood's shoes are like perfect pieces of sculpture. i can't ever imagine wearing these shoes, but looking at them makes me think harder about the concept of juxtaposition than most other art pieces that purport to do the same.






Calvin Klein's USB sunglasses: nifty!

there is nothing in me right now that will let me finish these apps

so i will share a picture, instead.


While k. was concentrating on his school work, i tied his hair with my hair-tie and took this picture. He was oblivious the entire time, but notice my happiness. i am obviously very pleased with myself.

i will whisper this under my breath, so you can pretend you cannot hear:

the old demons are coming back.


1. I hate when people ask me, "How's school going?" I don't hate the person, I just hate the question.
2. When someone asks me, "How are you?", i don't mind. But i especially like it when the emphasis is on the 'are'. As in, "How ARE you?"
3. Sincerity is important to me.


I'm learning a lot about myself these days. This is the moment when the shit hits the fan...for eight months. Shit on the fan for eight months is way too long, in my opinion. I feel sorry for the boyfriend. But at least i'm being forced to redefine and evaluate my goals and values. Right? At the least?

I'm sure its the general case that things get more and more difficult as we get older. So it makes sense that this phase right now is by far, the most stressful. I just hope I don't do anything too crazy in the meanwhile. My sanity always hangs by a thin thin strand.

Trying to balance the prospect of graduating, my grades, clinics, bar exam, barbri classes, and trying to find a job, and trying to figure out what i want to do with this degree that i worked so hard and paid so much money for, ...is hard.

she's bringing it back

I'm a couple of months into my 26th year, and so far, I'm far from actually feeling like I'm 26. But before I get to my next birthday, I should (God willing and God helping) be an attorney. Law school, check. Bar exam, check. and Job? Career? Check? I'm really hoping that this is what I want. Regardless, it shall be an accomplishment that fills me with wonder. Hey, i just want to have a job that i love. Apparently, that really is too much to ask these days.

1. Stupid people drive me crazy.
2. Usually I'm a laid back person. I'm flexible, I'm open, I can adapt. But I also have a personality setting that needs efficiency and organization. Seriously, if you need to get it together, get it together.
3. Sometimes I forget the infinite value of having a song pour in through your eardrums and massage away all grumps and pains. But then I click on a weepies song, and I remember.
4. I'm going to be one of those ladies that always has some gin and tonic in her kitchen.
5. Ode to the creative soul: I love that this world contains art. I love that I have access to it, and that i can be a part of it. I will always attempt to make it more a part of me, and make me more a part of it. (social change and art, blah blah)


I'm pooped. and I'm pissed that blogger won't let me switch my gmail account identity. Whats up, blogspot, whats up.